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Last night for some reason i had thoughts that i thought were pretty big. It felt i was figuring stuff out and things were becoming clearer. Haven't felt like that since i got high back in undergrad. Anyway, right before going to sleep, i was thinking about how i got to sleep (watching tv, or with comp in bed, many things going on around me). I think watching tv makes you think less. I would bet that the brain waves are real low when ppl watch tv. I think that helps me to shut off my mind (at least from traditional thinking). Without tv, my mind just keeps on going (sorta like it did last night). I think about work, my life, the temperature, what to do tomorrow, deep thoughts, annoying thoughts, any thoughts. Its as if i now need to fill in empty space to keep from thinking. I think thats why im hooked on tv before bed. Its like a mental addiction similar addiction to any other drug, except potentially not as directly chemically based. Perhaps people who are able to fall asleep without any distraction are more mentally fit. Things are are peace in thier mind, or they are just used to being able to "turn off" when needed. Thats impressive. I think i'd be more mentally fit if i didnt have distractions like tv and internet. Force me to deal with thoughts maybe? Talk to real people, have real fun? I imagine living life in india in my village- not that you cant get tv or internet there, but we didnt have it in our house. Makes you kinda live a traditional people interactive life... Anyway, it would be interesting to talk to a sleep doctor and see what goes on in making people fall asleep. I bet tv for me induces the same drugs to be let into my brain as the ones that are prescribed as sleep pills. At least i would hope so. If not, the sleep pills are making you sleep in a round about potentially harmful way (think alcohol induced coma- ha). Anyway, i had another thought, but it was closer to me falling asleep so i cant remember it. It was good though.