Driving

I miss driving in the summer time. I miss listening to the radio, and the way it sounds on a nice tuned up stereo system in a pimp car. Windows down, music blastin. Its the best. Really- the best

Celebrities/Singers

So i realized something celebrities do really have it hard. They have to do some pretty crazy things and make it believeable. That aint easy to do, and they gotta do it no matter what kind of mood they are in. The only way ppl like them is if its believeable- even when its really not believeable. They have to make our fantasies believeable. Pretty nuts if you think about it. It may seem easy cause they are our fantasies, but its not, because fantasies rarely come true, so its hard to pretend that they are real, and sell it to the public... This may not make any sense but it makes complete sense to me. Its like a big front you gotta put on the whole damn time. Especially considering if you really big, its hard to get privacy- and no one wants to break thier public's fantasy about them by hearing real life shitty things about thier star... It aint easy being pimp... It just looks easy...

Morning

I am Not a morning person. I hate getting up. I like waking up, and lazing around in bed. But, deep down, real deep, now I think I am a morning person. When I do get up, I like how the world seems like its also just getting up- or still asleep. Its like you are the lucky one, getting a head start on everybody else. Often times its peaceful. A little cold. A little sleepy. The whole day is ahead. And breakfast. Man oh man do i love breakfast. McDonalds egg mcmuffin, blimpies bluffins, george's waffles, eggs, and bacon, i hop's pancakes, its just so good. Eating a relaxing breakfast is the best. Especially if its a chill place, not too crowded, and if its early- for me- id say 9am.
I just ate a ham egg and cheese on a muffin. mmm

Thoughts

This weekend i went to charlotte. It was a pretty good time. Enjoyed my parents, and seeing the new developments in my house (parents house) and the city. But many random things happened. For one, on my way flying out to CLT, on the runway, I saw two rabbits. Just running around on the shoulder of the runway. I really wonder if they live at the airport. It pretty hard to just hop into newark airport randomly. It has fences and water on one side. Another random thing on my way back- i met this italian girl franchesca. She lives in france but is from italy, shes in new york for only about 3 days, hope she has a good time, this was her first time in the US. i dont meet many random people mind you
i also met an old friend from charlotte at the airport which was nice
so,
i have thoughts on success
i read an article about it, and really think ppl define success differently, which is fine, but actually i dont think its all too fine, cause i think the way i define it is right- lasting, fullfilling, and can withstand criticism
of course i dont think ive achieved it so i have no way of really knowing
i like ralph waldo emerson's definition:
"To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others; to leave the world a little better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is the meaning of success!"
I like all of it until the last bit that starts to know even one life....
it gets a bit corny there
i mean who knows if someone would have been miserable or not just because you were not born
chances are, its not likely, they woulda found somebody similar to you and be ok...
anyway,
i sorta feel like success is something that should never be achieved- partly because i read an article about how super successful people get depressed cause they have achieved everything there is to achieve
but really, i think being successful is basically being happy
being happy in all aspects of your life
not just work
but work, friends, love, family, kids, yourself
problem is, success in some areas may come at an expense to others, and then most ppl feel unsuccessful
life if something happened to you that made you incredibly sad/mad/scared/or all of the negatives emotions, and it took a while to overcome- that is success
but success in work, love, family, kids may not be as great, in your eyes...
question is
can more success in one area compensate for lack of in another?
probably not
so then is mediocre success in all areas better than more or less success in other areas?
who knows
its probably all the yin and yang, gotta balance it out
50 50
or maybe 25 25 25 25
i'll admit, i personally think the mediocre way in all is the way to go
you're always striving
and things are balanced
i probably put more value on family/love
than work
i love being intellectually challenged in a cool environment, but i kinda feel you work to live
and living is love/family/friends
but i guess it could be work too
its just to date, my fondest memories are not of work
hell, actually at this point, i'd welcome my fondest memories being work
cause right now they are not exactly anything
anyway, success is success
this has been a poor rambling on random things
next time, i hope to succeed in writing a successful rambling of random things