My World

It is too hard to find somebody that you work with. Like work with pretty darn well. And by work i mean click. In sync. Simpatico. Ying to yo yingyang. I never thought it was a big deal, but lately I sometimes think how shitty would it be if everybody else you hang out with found the person, and you settled. Not that i am anywhere close to settling, though it should be more of a reality. It would be sorta shite.
But on a related note. Aint it too hard to do the work of finding that person? I am probably one of the laziest persons i know. But im hoping that im not the only one who thinks the search is so daunting that its hard to bother..
Fine, its an excuse.
I think i just need to bring everybody i meet, every time, all the time, into my world. Its a scary thought. I'm scared of it. Partly because i think other people would be scared of it. Or just not come. Thats the whole reason actually. But i gotta make erbody converts. Redefine my type. Create a new stereotype. One girl in my class in elementary school did this. Her personality was so awesome- she redefined my image of people who looked like her. Personality really does make you. I think it has the possibility of overcoming most physical attributes. But it aint no joke doin it. But those are the most refreshing people.
Motto: Bring em in. Be courteous, conscientious, confident.
mm, bit uh... gay
not that theres anything wrong with that..

Thoughts

I hate people who take and upload 400 pictures from a long weekend vacation. Even for a week long vacation that is insane. Its more than 2 pictures per hour
Every, freakin, hour.
There is no way your life is that interesting.

Fresh air is underated.

The weather is underated.

I would be weather if i could.

madonna still got it goin on
i didnt want her to be right because this city has grown on me
but then i realized shes right
she holds nyc to a higher standard
she musta known it when ppl kept it real
fo real
lately i feel like nyc has become a land of people who are in love with the idea of nyc
thats it
nothing else
just the coolness of nyc
the only substance these people have are their idea of whatever is in nyc is cool, modern, and worth the money
lately, its not
if its gonna have the cache, its gotta earn it
maybe i dont run in the right circles, but i aint seen the uniqueness, creativity, innovation that i feel must have created the idea of nyc
i still love it cause its got more of that than any other place ive been
but lately, i feel like its filled with old money rich folk, who do the arts cause there aint no risk in it for em, or young money rich folk (investment bankers) who come hear because now they have enough money to be the big cheese in a cool city
i'd love to be an artiste
but i gotta keep it real as an effin IT guy in a hospital
fuck it
i could make that cool
i'd be fuckin god if i could make that cool
either case, i'd keep it real trying to make that cool
or atleast be cool despite my bland profession
which i actually like btw...
whatever,
life is life
tryin to make a dolla.