Give
Maybe this is lazy, maybe its weak, maybe its selfish, but I think people should watch how much they give
its a rough world out there
if you give with a full heart, there are chances that things may go awry
yes, giving lovingly is maybe one of the best things in the world
but maybe the best things in life arent free
wouldnt that be too easy?
you are risking a lot
maybe only the feeble minded are risking, and the enlightened are not
but i think most of us are feeble minded
give first to yourself
and never let the balance go more away from yourself
im talking from the point of view of taking care of yourself
if you give completely, you give away yourself, and then there is nothing more
perhaps only with God is there no chance of being betrayed because he is so mysterious we never really know if we were betrayed or not
usually there is some kind of caveat even when the world conspires against you when it comes to God
anyway
you cant fully completely and uninhibitedly trust others
the trick is being able to half ass trust
this way you dont become a social misfit
but dont ruin yourself in the process
trust only as much as you must
give as much as you can afford
never more
if you do more, you may temporarily benefit someone, but in the long term, you will be useless
and no one is worth more than your your long term life
people are at the most worth when they thrive
not when they give themselves completely away
it is also probably wise to never be vulnerable
it is also probably impossible, and if it is, probably wise to be only vulnerable in the little things, mabye materialistic things
being vulnerable is not helpful to you
it is probably best to be constantly moving and changing
this prevents you from being vulnerable, and you can still live a productive, and fullfilling life, without being vulnerable to malevolent external circumstances...
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Saturday, November 17, 2007
How to live life
Passion and Fun
Very good lecture
Its a little over an hour long but deffinitely worth watching
better than rerun shit on tv...
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=362421849901825950&hl=en
Passion and Fun
Very good lecture
Its a little over an hour long but deffinitely worth watching
better than rerun shit on tv...
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=362421849901825950&hl=en
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Individuality
Its easy to get caught up in what others or society thinks is important/positive/successful/cool. I think the truth is its important to do things that make sense to you, regardless of whether or not they are true for others. This sponsors innovation, creativity, peace, and maybe social change. Who knows you might be happier bucking the trend, creating a new or breaking an old stereotype. Someone has to set the trend, why not it be you? But not for trend's sake, for your sake, and perhaps others will enjoy it too... Not always easy to find friends/family/employers that support this. "Too much creativity gets in the way of productivity." Organizations should ideally maximize creativity, minimize organizational structure, while still meeting and exceeding the end goal. I think this makes any organization's solutions more robust. Tried, tested, from all angles and walks of life. Structure allows you to manage/monitor quality and performance. How do you ensure quality and productivity without organizational structure? Trust. When hiring, you have to trust that a person is motivated. Trust that they can produce. Make fit a more prominent goal. Create an employee satisfaction department. Serve the employee and they will serve you. Make there no reason not to produce in every sense. Go beyond company environment into personal and private environments if necessary and welcomed. Is there a company so good that someone would never want to leave? Can there be a company that can serve the employee in all aspects so that they don't have a desire to leave? Perhaps companies can facilitate a person's calling? It would be a win for everyone- company eliminates inefficient, lower productive or less ambitious employees, employees find professions where they ARE all of those things. The other company gets a great new employee, and society benefits from more innovation or better service. I think the next level on quality improvement is people. Improving the quality of people working for you- not necessarily educating them, but finding the right ones, and removing obstacles for them. The productivity and innovation potential of cultivating more Einstein's or Newtons, or Welches, or Gates is enormous. I believe there is greater good in helping more people achieve thier potential in everyway. No education program can match the power of enabling or motivating young stars to reach thier potential. Theoretically it is impossible. You can only teach as much as is currently known. But helping a person unleash the drive, the creativity, the motivation and the way, allows you to blow the cap off of possibilities. If we could measure the rate of innovation, implement a plan to focus on removing barriers to success (every kind and combination) and see how much the rate of innovation increases would be phenomenal. It may come down to changing culture. A culture of happiness, individuality, creativity, benevolence, equality has an insane amount of potential in changing the world. There are too many obstacles, many of them dealing with culture and individual circumstances that prevent people from acheiving thier potential. There is no value in homogeneity. Heterogeneity allows people to compare, contrast, and improve ideas, and technology. Diversity is an asset in anything. For example say Google is a great company, and they indeed happen to have all of the smartest most innovative thinkers there are. Products might be great, but the lack of market competition would hinder innovation in other areas such as price, or even technology. Lack of reasources creates innovation to benefit the greater good. From necesity is born innovation. Diversity is natural and it will always exist. The best thing to do is to use it and support it. It makes for happy people. Happy because you are useful, and happy because your individual beliefs are supported. Organizations and Countries should be more organic and have fewer barriers. This is all dependent on trust. The more trust in the benevolence of people, the more we can accomplish to benefit oursevles. We are wasting time fighting, whatever it is that each of us fight...
Its easy to get caught up in what others or society thinks is important/positive/successful/cool. I think the truth is its important to do things that make sense to you, regardless of whether or not they are true for others. This sponsors innovation, creativity, peace, and maybe social change. Who knows you might be happier bucking the trend, creating a new or breaking an old stereotype. Someone has to set the trend, why not it be you? But not for trend's sake, for your sake, and perhaps others will enjoy it too... Not always easy to find friends/family/employers that support this. "Too much creativity gets in the way of productivity." Organizations should ideally maximize creativity, minimize organizational structure, while still meeting and exceeding the end goal. I think this makes any organization's solutions more robust. Tried, tested, from all angles and walks of life. Structure allows you to manage/monitor quality and performance. How do you ensure quality and productivity without organizational structure? Trust. When hiring, you have to trust that a person is motivated. Trust that they can produce. Make fit a more prominent goal. Create an employee satisfaction department. Serve the employee and they will serve you. Make there no reason not to produce in every sense. Go beyond company environment into personal and private environments if necessary and welcomed. Is there a company so good that someone would never want to leave? Can there be a company that can serve the employee in all aspects so that they don't have a desire to leave? Perhaps companies can facilitate a person's calling? It would be a win for everyone- company eliminates inefficient, lower productive or less ambitious employees, employees find professions where they ARE all of those things. The other company gets a great new employee, and society benefits from more innovation or better service. I think the next level on quality improvement is people. Improving the quality of people working for you- not necessarily educating them, but finding the right ones, and removing obstacles for them. The productivity and innovation potential of cultivating more Einstein's or Newtons, or Welches, or Gates is enormous. I believe there is greater good in helping more people achieve thier potential in everyway. No education program can match the power of enabling or motivating young stars to reach thier potential. Theoretically it is impossible. You can only teach as much as is currently known. But helping a person unleash the drive, the creativity, the motivation and the way, allows you to blow the cap off of possibilities. If we could measure the rate of innovation, implement a plan to focus on removing barriers to success (every kind and combination) and see how much the rate of innovation increases would be phenomenal. It may come down to changing culture. A culture of happiness, individuality, creativity, benevolence, equality has an insane amount of potential in changing the world. There are too many obstacles, many of them dealing with culture and individual circumstances that prevent people from acheiving thier potential. There is no value in homogeneity. Heterogeneity allows people to compare, contrast, and improve ideas, and technology. Diversity is an asset in anything. For example say Google is a great company, and they indeed happen to have all of the smartest most innovative thinkers there are. Products might be great, but the lack of market competition would hinder innovation in other areas such as price, or even technology. Lack of reasources creates innovation to benefit the greater good. From necesity is born innovation. Diversity is natural and it will always exist. The best thing to do is to use it and support it. It makes for happy people. Happy because you are useful, and happy because your individual beliefs are supported. Organizations and Countries should be more organic and have fewer barriers. This is all dependent on trust. The more trust in the benevolence of people, the more we can accomplish to benefit oursevles. We are wasting time fighting, whatever it is that each of us fight...
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Fuckit
I think there are a legion of people who would benefit from using this title as thier motto.
really? its probably not worth it. Rather than drugs (prescribed pill kind), i propose fuckit clubs
not necessarily fucking but come to think of it, fucking wouldnt be bad either
but i mean a group of people who get together, bullshit, complain, and collectively decide to-- fuckit
not necessarily endorsing drugs
like:
-oh tommy, life is so hard man
-tom, dude, just fuckit
-pfffeewww, here, take some...
well come to think of it, that might not be bad either
so as long as the group's second motto is moderation
everything in moderation
givin up is cool
givin up may give you second wind man
tho thats a trickly road
anyway
fuckinit gives you clarity
perspective
release
and renew-tion
no, still not really talking about actually fuckin but fuckinit
do what you want
when you want
believing this, atleast wont make you mad
may fuck you in other areas, but honestly, those areas might not matter the most
if ppl cant get over stupid shit you do, then fuckit
dont need em
lifes all about stupid shit
society makes it wrong
nature makes it reality
and theres nothin wrong with the au-naturaal
I think there are a legion of people who would benefit from using this title as thier motto.
really? its probably not worth it. Rather than drugs (prescribed pill kind), i propose fuckit clubs
not necessarily fucking but come to think of it, fucking wouldnt be bad either
but i mean a group of people who get together, bullshit, complain, and collectively decide to-- fuckit
not necessarily endorsing drugs
like:
-oh tommy, life is so hard man
-tom, dude, just fuckit
-pfffeewww, here, take some...
well come to think of it, that might not be bad either
so as long as the group's second motto is moderation
everything in moderation
givin up is cool
givin up may give you second wind man
tho thats a trickly road
anyway
fuckinit gives you clarity
perspective
release
and renew-tion
no, still not really talking about actually fuckin but fuckinit
do what you want
when you want
believing this, atleast wont make you mad
may fuck you in other areas, but honestly, those areas might not matter the most
if ppl cant get over stupid shit you do, then fuckit
dont need em
lifes all about stupid shit
society makes it wrong
nature makes it reality
and theres nothin wrong with the au-naturaal
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Clear
Last night for some reason i had thoughts that i thought were pretty big. It felt i was figuring stuff out and things were becoming clearer. Haven't felt like that since i got high back in undergrad. Anyway, right before going to sleep, i was thinking about how i got to sleep (watching tv, or with comp in bed, many things going on around me). I think watching tv makes you think less. I would bet that the brain waves are real low when ppl watch tv. I think that helps me to shut off my mind (at least from traditional thinking). Without tv, my mind just keeps on going (sorta like it did last night). I think about work, my life, the temperature, what to do tomorrow, deep thoughts, annoying thoughts, any thoughts. Its as if i now need to fill in empty space to keep from thinking. I think thats why im hooked on tv before bed. Its like a mental addiction similar addiction to any other drug, except potentially not as directly chemically based. Perhaps people who are able to fall asleep without any distraction are more mentally fit. Things are are peace in thier mind, or they are just used to being able to "turn off" when needed. Thats impressive. I think i'd be more mentally fit if i didnt have distractions like tv and internet. Force me to deal with thoughts maybe? Talk to real people, have real fun? I imagine living life in india in my village- not that you cant get tv or internet there, but we didnt have it in our house. Makes you kinda live a traditional people interactive life... Anyway, it would be interesting to talk to a sleep doctor and see what goes on in making people fall asleep. I bet tv for me induces the same drugs to be let into my brain as the ones that are prescribed as sleep pills. At least i would hope so. If not, the sleep pills are making you sleep in a round about potentially harmful way (think alcohol induced coma- ha). Anyway, i had another thought, but it was closer to me falling asleep so i cant remember it. It was good though.
Last night for some reason i had thoughts that i thought were pretty big. It felt i was figuring stuff out and things were becoming clearer. Haven't felt like that since i got high back in undergrad. Anyway, right before going to sleep, i was thinking about how i got to sleep (watching tv, or with comp in bed, many things going on around me). I think watching tv makes you think less. I would bet that the brain waves are real low when ppl watch tv. I think that helps me to shut off my mind (at least from traditional thinking). Without tv, my mind just keeps on going (sorta like it did last night). I think about work, my life, the temperature, what to do tomorrow, deep thoughts, annoying thoughts, any thoughts. Its as if i now need to fill in empty space to keep from thinking. I think thats why im hooked on tv before bed. Its like a mental addiction similar addiction to any other drug, except potentially not as directly chemically based. Perhaps people who are able to fall asleep without any distraction are more mentally fit. Things are are peace in thier mind, or they are just used to being able to "turn off" when needed. Thats impressive. I think i'd be more mentally fit if i didnt have distractions like tv and internet. Force me to deal with thoughts maybe? Talk to real people, have real fun? I imagine living life in india in my village- not that you cant get tv or internet there, but we didnt have it in our house. Makes you kinda live a traditional people interactive life... Anyway, it would be interesting to talk to a sleep doctor and see what goes on in making people fall asleep. I bet tv for me induces the same drugs to be let into my brain as the ones that are prescribed as sleep pills. At least i would hope so. If not, the sleep pills are making you sleep in a round about potentially harmful way (think alcohol induced coma- ha). Anyway, i had another thought, but it was closer to me falling asleep so i cant remember it. It was good though.
Thursday, August 02, 2007
The Case
With work being so dagone stressful, and me being at work at the moment I probably shouldnt be blogging.
The is a man however, on our floor (maybe) who is down right nasty. He leaves monstrous dumps, with toilet paper everywhere. On the floors, on the seat, in the bowl, on the handle, everywhere- and doesnt even flush or clean up. Some other guys on the floor (not in my office) decided to write him a note- basically calling him out and tellin him to clean the shit up. Very next day the note is ripped up, and a stinging fresh new deposit with 30 trees worth of toilet paper is back- even worse than before. Lately its been good- no poops, no papers. But recently (yesterday) i was in there when a man came in the stall next to me (the same one of the dirty pooper)- 5 minutes of lining the seat with TP go by and say to myself, I GOT HIM! I will wait out this bastered and find his identity. I'll be the Hero of our floor- we can drive him out- banish him forever. better yet, not tell him we know its him, but rather give him dirty looks on the elevator and in the halls. make comments to drive him crazy- you know amelie like. i stayed in there, devoted to the cause
but then...
the light goes out
we were in there so long, the automatic timer on the light went out!
i sit
he sits
no words
whos gonna bail
after a while i couldnt take the uncomfortableness
i clean up in the dark, wash my hands and get out
he should thank me for letting him poop in light
but i dont give up
fortunately the back door to our office (haha) is in a direct line of the mens bathroom
i go in, and leave it cracked
peeking to see who it is
wait
wait
wait,
then finally the bhais comes out- its a jewish guy from the copy machine company
i got him!
I GOT HIM!
i go back to check the damage
but...
nothing
clean
not crystal clean, but clean
flushed
no TP
nothing
though he did break the paper towel dispenser and throw it in the trash
(i could hear that from all the way down the hall)
he might have seen me peaking but i dont care
but other than that..
Nothing!
a dead end
all that work just flushed down the toilet
it was pretty dissapointing
but i still have my suspicions
maybe it was him
but he knew i was on to him
so he behaved
maybe it was someone else
originally my suspicion was someone not on our floor
just didnt want to believe someone on our floor could be such an ass
this guys behavior (throwing the paper towel dispenser- well, half of it- into the trash) is pretty pro nasty pooper
either way, if he knows i know
im glad
i'll be watching him
and if he acts up again
i'll give him a swirly he'll never forget
With work being so dagone stressful, and me being at work at the moment I probably shouldnt be blogging.
The is a man however, on our floor (maybe) who is down right nasty. He leaves monstrous dumps, with toilet paper everywhere. On the floors, on the seat, in the bowl, on the handle, everywhere- and doesnt even flush or clean up. Some other guys on the floor (not in my office) decided to write him a note- basically calling him out and tellin him to clean the shit up. Very next day the note is ripped up, and a stinging fresh new deposit with 30 trees worth of toilet paper is back- even worse than before. Lately its been good- no poops, no papers. But recently (yesterday) i was in there when a man came in the stall next to me (the same one of the dirty pooper)- 5 minutes of lining the seat with TP go by and say to myself, I GOT HIM! I will wait out this bastered and find his identity. I'll be the Hero of our floor- we can drive him out- banish him forever. better yet, not tell him we know its him, but rather give him dirty looks on the elevator and in the halls. make comments to drive him crazy- you know amelie like. i stayed in there, devoted to the cause
but then...
the light goes out
we were in there so long, the automatic timer on the light went out!
i sit
he sits
no words
whos gonna bail
after a while i couldnt take the uncomfortableness
i clean up in the dark, wash my hands and get out
he should thank me for letting him poop in light
but i dont give up
fortunately the back door to our office (haha) is in a direct line of the mens bathroom
i go in, and leave it cracked
peeking to see who it is
wait
wait
wait,
then finally the bhais comes out- its a jewish guy from the copy machine company
i got him!
I GOT HIM!
i go back to check the damage
but...
nothing
clean
not crystal clean, but clean
flushed
no TP
nothing
though he did break the paper towel dispenser and throw it in the trash
(i could hear that from all the way down the hall)
he might have seen me peaking but i dont care
but other than that..
Nothing!
a dead end
all that work just flushed down the toilet
it was pretty dissapointing
but i still have my suspicions
maybe it was him
but he knew i was on to him
so he behaved
maybe it was someone else
originally my suspicion was someone not on our floor
just didnt want to believe someone on our floor could be such an ass
this guys behavior (throwing the paper towel dispenser- well, half of it- into the trash) is pretty pro nasty pooper
either way, if he knows i know
im glad
i'll be watching him
and if he acts up again
i'll give him a swirly he'll never forget
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Monday, April 23, 2007
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Celebrities/Singers
So i realized something celebrities do really have it hard. They have to do some pretty crazy things and make it believeable. That aint easy to do, and they gotta do it no matter what kind of mood they are in. The only way ppl like them is if its believeable- even when its really not believeable. They have to make our fantasies believeable. Pretty nuts if you think about it. It may seem easy cause they are our fantasies, but its not, because fantasies rarely come true, so its hard to pretend that they are real, and sell it to the public... This may not make any sense but it makes complete sense to me. Its like a big front you gotta put on the whole damn time. Especially considering if you really big, its hard to get privacy- and no one wants to break thier public's fantasy about them by hearing real life shitty things about thier star... It aint easy being pimp... It just looks easy...
So i realized something celebrities do really have it hard. They have to do some pretty crazy things and make it believeable. That aint easy to do, and they gotta do it no matter what kind of mood they are in. The only way ppl like them is if its believeable- even when its really not believeable. They have to make our fantasies believeable. Pretty nuts if you think about it. It may seem easy cause they are our fantasies, but its not, because fantasies rarely come true, so its hard to pretend that they are real, and sell it to the public... This may not make any sense but it makes complete sense to me. Its like a big front you gotta put on the whole damn time. Especially considering if you really big, its hard to get privacy- and no one wants to break thier public's fantasy about them by hearing real life shitty things about thier star... It aint easy being pimp... It just looks easy...
Friday, April 13, 2007
Morning
I am Not a morning person. I hate getting up. I like waking up, and lazing around in bed. But, deep down, real deep, now I think I am a morning person. When I do get up, I like how the world seems like its also just getting up- or still asleep. Its like you are the lucky one, getting a head start on everybody else. Often times its peaceful. A little cold. A little sleepy. The whole day is ahead. And breakfast. Man oh man do i love breakfast. McDonalds egg mcmuffin, blimpies bluffins, george's waffles, eggs, and bacon, i hop's pancakes, its just so good. Eating a relaxing breakfast is the best. Especially if its a chill place, not too crowded, and if its early- for me- id say 9am.
I just ate a ham egg and cheese on a muffin. mmm
I am Not a morning person. I hate getting up. I like waking up, and lazing around in bed. But, deep down, real deep, now I think I am a morning person. When I do get up, I like how the world seems like its also just getting up- or still asleep. Its like you are the lucky one, getting a head start on everybody else. Often times its peaceful. A little cold. A little sleepy. The whole day is ahead. And breakfast. Man oh man do i love breakfast. McDonalds egg mcmuffin, blimpies bluffins, george's waffles, eggs, and bacon, i hop's pancakes, its just so good. Eating a relaxing breakfast is the best. Especially if its a chill place, not too crowded, and if its early- for me- id say 9am.
I just ate a ham egg and cheese on a muffin. mmm
Monday, April 09, 2007
Thoughts
This weekend i went to charlotte. It was a pretty good time. Enjoyed my parents, and seeing the new developments in my house (parents house) and the city. But many random things happened. For one, on my way flying out to CLT, on the runway, I saw two rabbits. Just running around on the shoulder of the runway. I really wonder if they live at the airport. It pretty hard to just hop into newark airport randomly. It has fences and water on one side. Another random thing on my way back- i met this italian girl franchesca. She lives in france but is from italy, shes in new york for only about 3 days, hope she has a good time, this was her first time in the US. i dont meet many random people mind you
i also met an old friend from charlotte at the airport which was nice
so,
i have thoughts on success
i read an article about it, and really think ppl define success differently, which is fine, but actually i dont think its all too fine, cause i think the way i define it is right- lasting, fullfilling, and can withstand criticism
of course i dont think ive achieved it so i have no way of really knowing
i like ralph waldo emerson's definition:
"To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others; to leave the world a little better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is the meaning of success!"
I like all of it until the last bit that starts to know even one life....
it gets a bit corny there
i mean who knows if someone would have been miserable or not just because you were not born
chances are, its not likely, they woulda found somebody similar to you and be ok...
anyway,
i sorta feel like success is something that should never be achieved- partly because i read an article about how super successful people get depressed cause they have achieved everything there is to achieve
but really, i think being successful is basically being happy
being happy in all aspects of your life
not just work
but work, friends, love, family, kids, yourself
problem is, success in some areas may come at an expense to others, and then most ppl feel unsuccessful
life if something happened to you that made you incredibly sad/mad/scared/or all of the negatives emotions, and it took a while to overcome- that is success
but success in work, love, family, kids may not be as great, in your eyes...
question is
can more success in one area compensate for lack of in another?
probably not
so then is mediocre success in all areas better than more or less success in other areas?
who knows
its probably all the yin and yang, gotta balance it out
50 50
or maybe 25 25 25 25
i'll admit, i personally think the mediocre way in all is the way to go
you're always striving
and things are balanced
i probably put more value on family/love
than work
i love being intellectually challenged in a cool environment, but i kinda feel you work to live
and living is love/family/friends
but i guess it could be work too
its just to date, my fondest memories are not of work
hell, actually at this point, i'd welcome my fondest memories being work
cause right now they are not exactly anything
anyway, success is success
this has been a poor rambling on random things
next time, i hope to succeed in writing a successful rambling of random things
This weekend i went to charlotte. It was a pretty good time. Enjoyed my parents, and seeing the new developments in my house (parents house) and the city. But many random things happened. For one, on my way flying out to CLT, on the runway, I saw two rabbits. Just running around on the shoulder of the runway. I really wonder if they live at the airport. It pretty hard to just hop into newark airport randomly. It has fences and water on one side. Another random thing on my way back- i met this italian girl franchesca. She lives in france but is from italy, shes in new york for only about 3 days, hope she has a good time, this was her first time in the US. i dont meet many random people mind you
i also met an old friend from charlotte at the airport which was nice
so,
i have thoughts on success
i read an article about it, and really think ppl define success differently, which is fine, but actually i dont think its all too fine, cause i think the way i define it is right- lasting, fullfilling, and can withstand criticism
of course i dont think ive achieved it so i have no way of really knowing
i like ralph waldo emerson's definition:
"To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others; to leave the world a little better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is the meaning of success!"
I like all of it until the last bit that starts to know even one life....
it gets a bit corny there
i mean who knows if someone would have been miserable or not just because you were not born
chances are, its not likely, they woulda found somebody similar to you and be ok...
anyway,
i sorta feel like success is something that should never be achieved- partly because i read an article about how super successful people get depressed cause they have achieved everything there is to achieve
but really, i think being successful is basically being happy
being happy in all aspects of your life
not just work
but work, friends, love, family, kids, yourself
problem is, success in some areas may come at an expense to others, and then most ppl feel unsuccessful
life if something happened to you that made you incredibly sad/mad/scared/or all of the negatives emotions, and it took a while to overcome- that is success
but success in work, love, family, kids may not be as great, in your eyes...
question is
can more success in one area compensate for lack of in another?
probably not
so then is mediocre success in all areas better than more or less success in other areas?
who knows
its probably all the yin and yang, gotta balance it out
50 50
or maybe 25 25 25 25
i'll admit, i personally think the mediocre way in all is the way to go
you're always striving
and things are balanced
i probably put more value on family/love
than work
i love being intellectually challenged in a cool environment, but i kinda feel you work to live
and living is love/family/friends
but i guess it could be work too
its just to date, my fondest memories are not of work
hell, actually at this point, i'd welcome my fondest memories being work
cause right now they are not exactly anything
anyway, success is success
this has been a poor rambling on random things
next time, i hope to succeed in writing a successful rambling of random things
Friday, January 19, 2007
Fear
Fear is the worst, most crippling and hurtful thing god has created. What can trap you, hurt you, control you, mentally, physically, and emotionally without the requirement of any interaction with anyone else or anything else? Fear.
I believe mental diseases or afflictions are the most worse, even more so than physical.
At least with physical abuse, a strong mind, willpower, or the desire to fight can help you, pull through or carry on.
But its when you mind is attacked, you start loosing the battle.
Even with physical abuse, I feel the mental defeat is what hurts you more.
I do believe there is some truth to mind over matter.
Don't get me wrong, physical abuse is bad, but if you have the strength (mental) you can fair fairly well with physical abuse, whether its from a person, animal, disease, or any other circumstance.
There is so much that hinders and hurts us that is really fear.
The thing that sparked this post was the two boys that got kidnapped, one for four years. One boy lived with his kidnapper with physical freedom, he had friends, he played outside, but he was terrified of running away, or even calling for help. Fear had paralyzed him so much that even when another friend suspected, and asked directly to him, whether he was the kidnapped kid, he could not say so from fear of his kidnapper.
Fear controls many people. Fear of public speaking, fear of loosing a job, fear of getting SICK, fear of being alone, fear of judgement.
Many times fear controls you, and no one instills this fear but yourself.
How powerful is that? Fear is so strong, it needs no external force, it embeds itself within you.
Maybe learning how to control (not eliminate) fear is the key to everything?
Not being afraid is healthy- less stress, more willingness to take chances= possibility of greater rewards.
Fear is not all bad i guess, it does prevent us from doing stupid things. And it works well on bratty little kids. Maybe even keeps social order.
Fear has its place, that's why it should never be eliminated.
But it is still extremely dangerous, deadly even.
There is never an easy answer to hard problems (i.e. you are paralyzed by fear? fine, eliminate it) Eliminating fear might well get yourself killed.
I guess its the ying and yang theory, and medical principle of homeostasis.
Everything needs to be balanced.
I think you could probably apply this theory to everything in life.
I think it applies to love too. Love is great, it brings great happiness. (Love for profession, love for your hobby, love for your mom, love for your wife)
But, too much love, is bad, if you love your work too much, you neglect your family, or your health, or your regard for others. Same with loving your wife too much, you neglect yourself, your friends, or your sense of reality, and issues will inevitably arise.
Even water, something as simple as water, which all doctors say you should drink a lot of, but too much, can actually cause you to be ill or die (i.e. the woman who died from a radio contest to drink the most water without peeing).
This year, i have felt compelled to do resolutions, not sure why because they never get done, but I'm sure thinking of a lot of good things. I think i should add one to the list- learn how to manage fear.
Fear is the worst, most crippling and hurtful thing god has created. What can trap you, hurt you, control you, mentally, physically, and emotionally without the requirement of any interaction with anyone else or anything else? Fear.
I believe mental diseases or afflictions are the most worse, even more so than physical.
At least with physical abuse, a strong mind, willpower, or the desire to fight can help you, pull through or carry on.
But its when you mind is attacked, you start loosing the battle.
Even with physical abuse, I feel the mental defeat is what hurts you more.
I do believe there is some truth to mind over matter.
Don't get me wrong, physical abuse is bad, but if you have the strength (mental) you can fair fairly well with physical abuse, whether its from a person, animal, disease, or any other circumstance.
There is so much that hinders and hurts us that is really fear.
The thing that sparked this post was the two boys that got kidnapped, one for four years. One boy lived with his kidnapper with physical freedom, he had friends, he played outside, but he was terrified of running away, or even calling for help. Fear had paralyzed him so much that even when another friend suspected, and asked directly to him, whether he was the kidnapped kid, he could not say so from fear of his kidnapper.
Fear controls many people. Fear of public speaking, fear of loosing a job, fear of getting SICK, fear of being alone, fear of judgement.
Many times fear controls you, and no one instills this fear but yourself.
How powerful is that? Fear is so strong, it needs no external force, it embeds itself within you.
Maybe learning how to control (not eliminate) fear is the key to everything?
Not being afraid is healthy- less stress, more willingness to take chances= possibility of greater rewards.
Fear is not all bad i guess, it does prevent us from doing stupid things. And it works well on bratty little kids. Maybe even keeps social order.
Fear has its place, that's why it should never be eliminated.
But it is still extremely dangerous, deadly even.
There is never an easy answer to hard problems (i.e. you are paralyzed by fear? fine, eliminate it) Eliminating fear might well get yourself killed.
I guess its the ying and yang theory, and medical principle of homeostasis.
Everything needs to be balanced.
I think you could probably apply this theory to everything in life.
I think it applies to love too. Love is great, it brings great happiness. (Love for profession, love for your hobby, love for your mom, love for your wife)
But, too much love, is bad, if you love your work too much, you neglect your family, or your health, or your regard for others. Same with loving your wife too much, you neglect yourself, your friends, or your sense of reality, and issues will inevitably arise.
Even water, something as simple as water, which all doctors say you should drink a lot of, but too much, can actually cause you to be ill or die (i.e. the woman who died from a radio contest to drink the most water without peeing).
This year, i have felt compelled to do resolutions, not sure why because they never get done, but I'm sure thinking of a lot of good things. I think i should add one to the list- learn how to manage fear.
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